in fact, they are kissing, sloppy style, squishing boobs together, etc.
a few months ago, i got into HDG. it really helped me realise just how fucking disabled i actually am. just how much i yearn for its world, how i yearn to be put on a leash and taken care of.
i think anarchism and petplay reinforce each others reasons for existing in the first place.
i believe that its core, anarchism is about seeing inherent value in every being - that everyone is deserving of necessities and luxury, regardless of their abilities or who they are. it carries with it critiques of hierarchy, sure, but that is moreso the result of trying to determine: what is the best and most universal way to provide for all.
petplay at its core is about having inherent value seen in you, that you are deserving of necessities and luxury, regardless of who you are, what you have achieved, or what you can do. to be a pet is to be loved and taken care of.
putting on that collar fucking changed me - suddenly i felt like i was able to exist without burden, i could just exist, without any expectations, and i could be guaranteed care and comfort. in that moment, all the pain that i have went through to try to survive in this world that sees me as just another worker to be exploited, melted away, and all i had to think about was meowing and being clicker trained.
sadly that collar was very shortlived.
to reject petplay for being 'hierarchical', is to miss the point of not only what its about, but also what anarchism is fundamentally about.
it matters more that a pet and their owner are happy, than it is whether or not their power dynamic is a universal solution. that is why the default of anarchism is to have no hierarchy - so that people may choose whatever fits them best, rather than being forced into an existing one.
im still coping with it all. the loss of that collar. the responsibility coming back to crush me under its weight. the loss of people i thought could help me. in the end i just wound up left with scars. the slashes keep coming and they wont let the scars heal.
anarchism and petplay also both deeply criticize labour itself. this world will tell you that if you are mentally ill, if you are disabled, if you simply dont want to, or cant provide labour - you are essentially useless, and do not deserve even basic necessities.
anarchism and petplay reject this notion. one should not have to work to be deserving of necessities, of luxury, of care, of love.
but i still carry on. im not sure how at this point. so many peoples brains break over the idea that i should not have to workto deserve a comfortable life. so many people reject me for my non-conformity. for my inability to even understand how to conform. but still, i somehow carry on.
i just want to be a pet.
i should not have to work.
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